disability

Sigh, I finally got the papers and they have granted me my disability-payments for the next 5 years.
The re-examination was in May and it was a terrible experience. But I am glad the waiting is over, it have been four long and nerve wrecking months...

borderline

Today the first day with the new med, Remeron. Took the first one before going to bed yesterday and slept like a baby. Frank had to wake me up, because Gladdichs whining did not wake me. And it took a long, long time before I felt awake, in all honesty I still feel a bit like I am sleeping.
Very positive: I can drink my coffee again in the morning. Could not cope with it the last weeks because of the nausea.
Taken the Chows for a walk and backc home I surfed the internet, from Remeron to noradrenalin, serotonin, endorfin, sef-injury to borderline personality disorder.

Yes borderline, that was the diagnose long time ago.
Last month I was back in it, the full blown rollercoaster called BPD and now I am tired, so tired.